under false pretenses

its hard to understand that some one you think is your best friend,
can suddenly turn and not like you anymore.

im not entirely sure how that works.
no signs, no hints, no nothing.
just walk away from you and not like you anymore.


and then after talking with someone else, not wanna talk with you.
not care what happens,
if the friendship lasts,
or if it doesnt.
but neither of those matter either,
cause according to that person there was never a "best friendship"


thats weird.
how could i be so wrong as to think that someone is becoming my best friend
but then its actually that they dont like me?
that they think im stealing their best friend away?

i never thought i could be so blind.
im usually pretty darn perceptive.
especially about people feelings.

and being so wrong about this,
and hearing what that person thinks about me
it confirms my worst fears.
and that scares me.

what to do?
i'm not sure
well i kind of do know what to do
but i dont know, actually don't think that it will work.

but hey, anythings worth a shot if the option of losing a best friend is on the table,
right?


even if the "best friend" was never really a best friend??
and they are ready to throw me away just like that?



hmmm
looks like i have some thinking to do.
wish me luck.