happy lately

i dont know why
but im very happy lately
things are stressful
and im sick
and i should be mad at some people.
and i kinda am.

but through all of this,
i remain happy.
i dont get stressed
i dont get angry.
i just let it pass.

it seems that nothing lately can get me down.
i love it :)


i think the only thing that can get me upset
is thinking about how much i miss home.
i see my family alot lately, they come up about every other week
but i still miss them alot.
i feel the need to call my mom more. and i dont ever wanna hang up.

but my friends.
wow. i miss them. more than anything.
i talk to some more now than before, but i think that makes me miss them more.
but honestly, i miss one friend more than the others.
way more than the others.
and thats saying ALOT, cause i miss everyone more than can be described in words.
i want her to know that im still me.
i struggled a bit in the beginning while ive been away.
but ive found myself again i think. i found the balance ive been looking for.
and i want you to see that. i want you to be proud.
i want to talk to you more. i dont want you to forget about me.
but i know you wont. cause when im feeling my most doubtful about us,
you seem to be able to sense it and you reaffirm me. :)



so overall, im happy and i feel loved.
<3